Next level of "Out of Focus"

Was been teased of being out of focus long time back. Yesterday night, i experienced the brand new level of out of focus.
Rose from my working place to get calculator in my room, grabbed it, came and sat down. When i look at what i was holding, it was my ALARM CLOCK. I was like, what the hell am i doing with my alarm clock in my hand? What was i went into room to get??? Then i remembered about some calculations.
Yes.... that's the common scenario you will be experiencing if you are out of focus.
C'est la vie. non?

Bedtime story book-Merde!

MERDE Attack !!!

My Second Stephen Clarke's book. Keeping it at night table as my weekend bedtime story book. "Pool" always amuses me. They way he puts all his MERDE experience into words is simply fascinating. From "My Tea Is Rich" in the previous book to what now??? Am still exploring. Feeling content indeed.

Who am I?

Often, I forgotten who I am. Underwent emotional roller-coaster. Disappointment and excitements came and left . It is no longer easy to be who I want to be, who I feel I am.Living in a community which everyone around is very good at something is stressful. I often have forgotten I am not like others. I kept on feeling upset due of shortcoming, and neglected the beauty of it, which give us room for improvement.

I am grateful that at least, there is always someone by my side, encouraging me in all aspects. Life is never easy, however we should never be too harsh on ourselves. Be happy, be grateful... and ENJOY.

24-4-2013

24-4-2013

 

Birthday wishes

Bed of roses

So many buzzes

Full of surprises. 

Men-o-pause 

to Me-no-pause

One big applause

Waken from diapause 

Keep calm

Roles

Growing up does not mean by age. With the time past by, we learnt. We learnt to be a better person. What defines by better person you may ask. In my layman eyes, being a better person means learn to play well in your ROLES (plural). We all having multiple roles at one time, as a student, as a lover, as a son/daughter, as a parent, as an employee/employer, as a man/woman. How well we play our roles, sadly it is also defined by other people standard. That is why we said life is a continuous learning process. Through experiences, we get to essence of how to play our roles better and that is one of the signs that you are growing, besides those physical characteristics. 

How many roles each one of you are playing? Imagine the work load, it goes almost the same with everyone. Smile and play well. :)

" The wise are wise only because they love. The fool are fools only because they think they can understand love."   (Paulo Coelho)

" There are two kinds of idiots - those who don't take action because they have received a threat, and those who think they are taking action because they have issued a threat. "(Paulo Coelho)

Changes

We go through metamorphosis, everyone of us will, someday at someplace.

It is a process and we learn through it. 

We transform, continuously, settle at a stage for sometime, and again, we continue the transformation. 

We tend to be wounded, but getting stronger along the way. 

We will never ever stay the same forever.

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Some, 

keep walking when they are hurt.

Some, 

keep talking when they are hurt.

Some,

Stop thinking when they are hurt.

Some,

Stop caring when they are hurt.

流失

可以感觉到某些东西逐渐的流失。
原来， 所谓的归属感是那么的重要。
因为有人的所作所为， 让我唯一的归属感大大的打了折扣。
这一份失去， 没料到给我带来的那么大的失落。 
当在那四面墙里的人开始容不下你的时候，
你就失去了那个 "家" 的意义， 渐渐的， 连可以依靠的地方也会消失。 

心.动

“ 等待，是为了和你相遇。”

偶然见到这一句，心弦莫名的被触动了一下。
我想说， 好想潇洒的说这一句话。 

Crossing from 2012 to 2013

365 days. Some bad days and some good days in between. On the new year eve, i continued my last year tradition of writing an email to thank someone who have been helping me so much in everything in my life. Made creme caramel and tea to celebrate my new year eve, sitting on the cold tile of my balcony floor, caressing by the cooling breeze, sipping hot tea and sharing my thoughts with my late father. Miss him so much on that cold night, when fireworks were blasting here and there in my sight. I recollected the first time this type of gigantic fireworks being introduced to "normal residents", around 8-9 years back which my neighbourhood was just started to taste its sweetness. Me and my father would walk around to hunt for its glory lights. 

After his leaving, fireworks reminded me of him every time when i see one. Especially during the festive season of new year and Chinese New Year. On year 2011, i was so blessed to have a once in a life time chance (to me it was) to visit US with my granny and uncle's family. Witnessed the most glorious enchanting and magical fireworks I could ever imagined in Disneyland in Anaheim, California. Yesterday, on the new  year eve, from the other end of my building, the bomb-blastic sound some fireworks caught my attention. So i went with camera, and managed to capture one photo. Very soon, after the building opposite is up. I will lose the chance of seeing such beautiful fireworks from there. Well, we all have to move on. 

2012 had been a good year to me when I try to only look a the bright side and ignore the bad. Many wonderful and memorable moments I had. I feel that, I kind of lost my impatience little by little too. Grateful and wishing to have another "enchanting" year. 

First photo of the year 2013. Bomb-blastic fireworks. Sign of the coming bombastic year? Let us all wish for that.

红色墨水笔

那一天， 见到了自己好久没有用的红色钢笔，联想到了自己的另外一支笔。
也开始喜欢红色墨水笔这一个名字。

自己经常用那红色墨水笔随性的涂写，虽然那墨水笔的外观是红色，但是里面的墨水却是黑色的。 是我把他的墨水内胆从原有的红色给换成了黑色。 原因是， 自己要的是黑色墨水笔， 却只买到了红色的，内夹红色墨水夹。结果， 为了满足自己，只好又买了黑色的墨水夹。
就这样， 红色墨水笔用的却是黑色墨水。 而喜欢涂写的我，已经用完了两个墨水。

再接再厉的涂写吧！